smugjet

Its very windy tonight..  I can smell the breeze of the sea outside my window.  People outside the street  are all busy roaming around the shops and restaurants nearby. The neon sign of the ice cream parlor looks blurd as the strong wind of the Mediterranean sea approachd.
Its been a week and I’m still the same awful emo you can ever see.  Even though I don’t consider myself as an emo all my friends keep on saying man don’t be so emo or you are so emo quit it.
I want to get over this feeling but I cant help it .
Coz the only person that can  save me from this curse is on holiday in the middle of far far away trance, shes busy  and confused  to ever think of me wanting her just  to even  look at my side.
I must try to get over this.
I so fckng hate it.
I’m crazy over her.
I don’t exactly know what happened to me.
Damn.

smugjet

I STILL CAN'T GET IT OUT OF MY HEAD.

i fckng seriously need help. i do.

smugjet

i dont know, we're ok now but still i can feel the difference in her.

she had totally completely changed, and i dont know if im gonaa be happy with that but thats ok with me as long as were together. if she change her mind and realize she really doesnt like this cguro it's still ok, that'll hurt me big time but i cannot do anything. even if she mean the whole world to me even if that'll make me a stupid for letting her go for her to be happy.

yesterday i was so hyper and trying to make her laugh and all thaat, i tried to be like her clown, but still.. i know deep insde me shes not so in to me now.probly still thinking of thaat guy, shes tired,  not feeling well.. i really dont know.

i learned a new word yesterday and its manafx pronounce as manafsh, its a maltese word for i dont know.

hoow i wish i know everything maybe that way im not guessing when it comes to her real feelings.

its half past 8 in the morning here, i hope my day will b alright. i need to buy some board shorts but i dont feel like going out.